Your Worth
"I am in a good place" I keep telling myself as I ponder my existence, and my recent experiences in life and love.
I have some of the most interesting conversations within the last few months, all in part due to my better understanding of who I am and where I am at.... but also an understanding of people's habits and actions.... why a person acts the way they do and the possibilites that result in that act.
I am venting in a way, in the only way I can which is through blog entries. I continue to keep the tradition of keeping my blog entries public, as a way to share my ideas so that others can compare with their own humanity.
It is amazing how clarity comes after the storm, but also after years of experience... and also "slowing down" for a change. I have a good life. I have no dysfunctionality, no anger, no problems, nothing.... and even if there is.... it does not affect me for long.
I have had some candid conversations in the last few months. I speak to Phi-long about his experience with his life and wife, bouncing ideas back and forth with him to better understand how people, or why people, act the way they do. Most often, his answers only support what I have already suspected.
Not giving up on love... that is something I have discussed with Jules. It is amazing how my storm brought her to my aid.... only to have it reversed for me to listen to her recent experiences. It helps that she's a fellow Cancer.
Jackie gave me recent insight on how it is to love someone deeply, but yet realize that love does not necessarily have to mean "relationship." Sometimes, loving someone isn't enough to change how you, or how they, feel.
Erin allowed me to understand, all based on a simple conversation on common interests (motorcycles, music, salsa dancing, windsurfing, snowboarding, and travel), that there are opportunities out there.... relationship opportunities.... available to you if you are willing to take that extra step.
Mourik, on our conversations on marriage and long term relationships, that being in a 3+ relationship that goes nowhere can have some very big problems.... only if you let it take ahold of you.
Kate, who gave me an understand that love is simple... love is young... love can last... and love does not have to be between just a husband and wife, or boyfriend or girlfriend.
And there is my recent conversation with Shannon, who has reminded me that with love... anything goes.
What I have come to the conclusion is that, if you love someone... or want someone... there is no excuse to not folow through.
If you really want someone, make the time.
If you really want someone, make the effort.
Sometimes you can give all the attention and love to someone... but you can't make them feel the same way towards you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, through your actions.... it is entirely up to them to realize what you are worth.
I have some of the most interesting conversations within the last few months, all in part due to my better understanding of who I am and where I am at.... but also an understanding of people's habits and actions.... why a person acts the way they do and the possibilites that result in that act.
I am venting in a way, in the only way I can which is through blog entries. I continue to keep the tradition of keeping my blog entries public, as a way to share my ideas so that others can compare with their own humanity.
It is amazing how clarity comes after the storm, but also after years of experience... and also "slowing down" for a change. I have a good life. I have no dysfunctionality, no anger, no problems, nothing.... and even if there is.... it does not affect me for long.
I have had some candid conversations in the last few months. I speak to Phi-long about his experience with his life and wife, bouncing ideas back and forth with him to better understand how people, or why people, act the way they do. Most often, his answers only support what I have already suspected.
Not giving up on love... that is something I have discussed with Jules. It is amazing how my storm brought her to my aid.... only to have it reversed for me to listen to her recent experiences. It helps that she's a fellow Cancer.
Jackie gave me recent insight on how it is to love someone deeply, but yet realize that love does not necessarily have to mean "relationship." Sometimes, loving someone isn't enough to change how you, or how they, feel.
Erin allowed me to understand, all based on a simple conversation on common interests (motorcycles, music, salsa dancing, windsurfing, snowboarding, and travel), that there are opportunities out there.... relationship opportunities.... available to you if you are willing to take that extra step.
Mourik, on our conversations on marriage and long term relationships, that being in a 3+ relationship that goes nowhere can have some very big problems.... only if you let it take ahold of you.
Kate, who gave me an understand that love is simple... love is young... love can last... and love does not have to be between just a husband and wife, or boyfriend or girlfriend.
And there is my recent conversation with Shannon, who has reminded me that with love... anything goes.
What I have come to the conclusion is that, if you love someone... or want someone... there is no excuse to not folow through.
If you really want someone, make the time.
If you really want someone, make the effort.
Sometimes you can give all the attention and love to someone... but you can't make them feel the same way towards you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, through your actions.... it is entirely up to them to realize what you are worth.
posted by Jimmy Smooth | Tuesday, November 18, 2008
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